i walk along to see

an unmarked grave

in a field of lillies

a symbol of death

surrounded by life

though there is no name

i know who lies here

i know who it is

for it is me

i lie there

in pieces

in shambles

but the she in the grave is not the she speaking to you

now

she is the past

she is the pain

the hurt

the suffering

endured in this life

she is a part of me

but she does not define me

i refuse to be defined

by pain

by hurt

by suffering

by the wrongs done to me

i refuse to be defined

by the death inside of me

i refuse to be defined

by all the negative

instead i choose the life

i choose the life surrounding the hurt

i choose growth and life

i choose the springtime and the sunshine

i choose life

though part of me is dead

a part of me will always survive

i will always survive

i will survive

i will choose to live

i will choose life