“Some things never change
Turn around and the time has flown
Some things stay the same
Though the future remains unknown
May our good luck last
May our past be past
Time’s moving fast, it’s true
Some things never change

And I’m holding on tight to you” (Some Things Never Change, Frozen 2)

Today was a perfect day for this song to come up.

Today is my last full day at Blinn College.

Today is the last full day before everything changes.

Today is the day I want to grab ahold of everything keeping me afloat before it all gets ripped away. But then I think of all the changes I’ve already gone through. All the people who have come and gone. All the classes taken. All the sleepless nights over tests and papers and grades. All the good memories, right alongside everything I’d rather forget.

But some things never change, right?

I have to remind myself that leaving Blinn does not mean leaving all the friends I’ve made. Leaving Blinn does not mean erasing every part of my past that is inextricably tied to this institution. Leaving doesn’t mean being left.

And just as some things never change, some things always will.

Ending this chapter at Blinn means it’s time to begin a new chapter somewhere else. In the Fall, I will be attending Texas Lutheran University! I will be continuing my studies in Music in pursuit of my Bachelor’s Degree and I could not be more excited for what that new chapter will hold.

The fun part of today is allowing myself to find balance in the understanding that my excitement for the new chapter and grief over the close of the current chapter can co-exist. They can both exist and take space in my mind. I don’t have to choose one over the other in order to feel them. I can feel both. It makes for an interesting combination of emotions, but I cannot allow myself to shut out the grief I am processing.

Graduation does come with a certain grief. Moving on to something new is always scary. I’m not an exception to the rule. But if I stick myself so deep into my grief, I won’t come up for air. I still need to move on and I know that. But I deserve to take my time, and I will take my time.

Some things never change. Some things always will.

But I will continue regardless. I will continue to persevere. I will continue.