Grace in progress

i once discovered

i was a queen

something i feel I’ve always known

yet surprised me the moment i heard it

i once discovered

i was queen

and i finally felt

the heavy weight

of the crown

the weight of the world

upon my shoulders

the knowledge that everyone counted

on me

the weight of responsibility

for things i wasn’t responsible for

the weight of uncertainty

the weight of doubt

the weight of complete insecurity

masked by a pretty smile

for you see

i once discovered

i was a queen

and so i picked myself up

dusted myself off

stepped into the light

sat down on my throne

and carried on

with no one being the wiser

no one knowing

the depths of uncertainty

that i felt

for that is a ruler’s job

is it not?

to suffer pain

so those you love

will never have to?

i once discovered

i was a queen

and then i discovered

nothing

ever

changes